Daily gratitude

Daily gratitude

I know I'm sitting down to write this really late but honestly I don't care because it's the weekend

I'm going to fully admit some days it's really hard being me..... now don't get me wrong I'm happy with who I am and where I am and what I've accomplished but there is just so much more than that I wanted to do or wish I could do and I'm hoping someday that I get to accomplish all of that and some of that I don't know what it is yet but as the days pass me by... I will figure it out

This new chair has been really hard for me to get used to I really don't know how to explain it but it's been really hard..... I don't know what it is or why but I really feel out of my element.... maybe it's cuz I'm afraid to admit to myself that things are getting harder to do.... my body is tired but yet when I want to go to bed I'm wide awake

I'm finally getting to the point with this new chair that I figured out a way to safely transfer in and out of it.... it takes me a little bit but I accomplished it.... there's a big part of me that is glad that nobody sees me do my transfers.... that's one part of myself that I like to keep to myself especially with this new chair

If you've gotten to this point and you're feeling out of your element tonight just be glad that you can safely take care of yourself and you don't have to work as hard as I do every single day and yet I wear a smile every single day because I think that's what people want to see when really some days all I want to do is cry because some days are just hard

Be happy with who you are because in an instant things could change