From Misty 8-24-15

alright I've been sitting here all day thinking pondering whatever you want to call it and I've just come to a conclusion about something that I have been dealing with and pondering for a couple years

I know it's late but I feel I must share this with all of you right now cuz its important to me and I feel I need to write it down

I'm not sure how many of you actually know if you're actually paying attention to what I post on my Facebook page

I do put a lot of things on Facebook because I think it's important not only for myself but for others so they can learn good bad or otherwise

now with that said actually what I am posting this

I do not know how many of you know but I am an author of 3 poetry books

and for a couple years now I've had a book that I've been working on but haven't really told anyone about it

and I actually got to the point where I forgot about it and decided to put it away and not work on it for a while and I wasn't sure why but tonight as I sit here thinking about things pondering things I now realize why I haven't worked on the book

it's important for me to finish that book....... I realize that tonight it's really important I need to finish that book..... I'm not going to explain why I need to finish my book but I realize now that now is the time I need to finish that book

you could say I had a light bulb moment

so within the next few weeks months maybe even a year I'm not sure but I'm going to finish this book and I will publish it and I will get it printed just like the other 3

it's important and I must do it now I realize that it is time for me to finish this book

I can't tell you why I put it down and put it away all I can tell you is that I know why and I know I have to finish it

I love you all very much and have a great night

Yummy dinner last week

My Flowers

Misty's Key Chains

Dinner!! Tonight!

Family

Can u see me!!!

Yummys from the pass few weeks

Update 8-19-15

Sorry for the lack of updates

I know I promised you guys updates but lately I haven't been feeling like I should be doing an update or sharing what's going on

Lately it’s been really hard to come home to an empty apartment and not be able to share the day’s events with someone

I know I have all of you that care about me extremely but sometimes it's just not the same

I had a really good day up in the city is it I would just love to share the great news with someone special

Well I guess I will share it with all of you I had my first pump fill post-surgery and it went extremely well

They had to poke me twice to find the port to put the medicine in they got it on the second try and that's with no x-rays

They filled the pump and I will be good until November

We are all extremely happy with how today went

We also did x-rays to make sure the pump was placed correctly and in their correctly seeing how they were unable to do x-rays on the day of surgery

The surgical site where the pump is placed is healing very nicely I still have a few stitches but eventually they will come out

Overall I'm very pleased with the day very happy with my progress

And very very happy to be alive today

As I get set for Friday my heart hurts

As Friday comes I realize that it is eight years since my family and I sent my father to heaven it is final resting place

I know I don't talk about my father much and I never really did but I need all of you too know that I love my father very much

I think I miss him more today than I did growing up

I honestly believe that my father is help me get through the past few months

he's my very special angel in heaven today tomorrow and every day until I see you

Gary Allen Yanish

Your baby daughter misses you very much and loves you with all her heart

Me and baby girl!

Pump!

Update 8-7-15

so I thought it was time for an update

let me just say before I start this update that there may be some things in this update that are kinda personal but I figured that if I don't share so that people can learn then how are people going to learn about having this disability

and I'm one of those people that are a very open and honest about everything so can you not like this update just go ahead and remove yourself from my friends list or stop reading my blog cause it will be posted there too

so to start out this update I will tell you that I've been quiet for a reason

I've been trying to enjoy my summer and just get used to this new pump spending my time at the Boys and Girls Club enjoying things that I haven't done in a very long time going to the concert  in the park and other things that I've never done before

but it's really important to me to keep you updated on things good bad and otherwise

in the past week I've been starting to not feel very good or just telling me that my pump getting low and I'm starting to withdraw from the medication now I have to say that I haven't had any spasms I just have the fact that I'm starting to not feel very good and I cannot hold my bladder  as well as I can when the pump is filled

my legs have been hurting and my stomach feels like I have a stomach ache it's a really uncomfortable feeling and my sleeping been off it's really uncomfortable to lay down

but I have to be thankful that I've had no spasms with this none what so ever

I'm very grateful for no spasms because then it would be twice as worse

I can handle the pain and stomach aches and the sleepless night but those spasms or what is the worst they are just unbearable

now all of this is very uncomfortable but I'm very grateful for all of it because I'm learning not just a one day process it's an everyday process and as I learn I'm grateful for every day because then I know when it happens again how to deal with the situation because I'm sure that it won't happen again that is just the way my body works

I will continue to fight and have a smile on my face and I will update as much as I can but that is enough for you and like I said before if you choose not to like this update just remove yourself

I'm done dealing with people's attitudes feelings and remarks I'm trying to live my life and this is the best way I know how to share my story so that other people can learn from it

I love you all very much thank you for sticking by my side through this journey of mind I will update again soon please go out and make someone smile have a great Friday and a good weekend too love misty

Garden!

Mom look at me!